As usual, school has taken over my time and that's all that has been preoccupying my mind lately. Interestingly, I am finding myself constantly asking my self daily whether or not I really want to get into Med school. Every night before I go to sleep, the thought dawns on me and I reflect on it. Last time I checked, my answer was "yes". 

Aside from my relationships with people, I enjoy fashion and science. Fashion has always been "the outward expression of one's self", stated by the WINNERS ads. But at the end of the day, clothes are just clothes. They are beautiful, elaborate, and glamorous in their own ways, but they are but just things. Science has always been in my interest because I believe it is the most humbling of all the fields of study. For us to know and understand how living things function we have to undergo so many courses, we have to read libraries (not just books), and yet that we are still left questioning. Similar to Med school, it just blows my mind away how greatly fashioned our bodies are. How cells make up tissues, tissues to organs, and organs to systems, is absolutely amazing. It makes you think, doesn't it, that we are not accidents (at least I don't believe so. I refuse to believe that I am created by a mere mutation that arose from years and years of evolution). I love the fact that takes a minimum of 10 years to undergo med school, internship, and then residency. I don't find it intimidating but rather humbling. It reminds me that I have no choice but to go straight to the only source of strength and knowledge. It reminds me that relying on myself would just lead to more limitations and that a leap of faith is the only option. 

I have never been one of those students who cruised by school. My mind doesn't have half the capacity Einstein had. I was never able to grasp concepts in mere seconds. I always had to work for everything I want to achieve. But what I do have is a heart, bigger than most, to fulfill this desire to get into the cut-throat, ultra-competitive, and yet most humbling field of study. And I also have a God, greater than all, to walk me through it.